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Almost 20 years ago I was in a serious relationship with a real "catch". This guy is beautiful, physically and his heart too. He was self-employed, had a huge house, a boat, was independently well to do. We dated for a looonggg time, 8+ months. He was great with my kids, he met my family, I met his and everything was great. He talked marriage, love, houses, life together, adopting (a child together as I cannot have anymore), said all the right things all the right ways. Took us places, long weekends, traveling... Then completely out of the blue, no warning signs whatsoever, he disappeared for about a month and a half. All his family would say is that he was dealing with some "internal demons" and went to visit family out of town because he suddenly was thinking a lot about dying and wanting to see family before that happened. (!?!?!?)
I was at the mall when I ran into him. He seemed uncomfortable and said he was sorry and wanted to get together to explain so we made arrangements. He blew me off, so I just felt the unsaid things was that he had broke it off with me and that was that. I was heartbroken. 3 years later I meet another man and we got married really quick, after only 6 months and have been together 12 years now.
Once again, out of the blue Mr. Almost was and I ran into each other and talk about WEIRD! He begged me to call him, was crying in public and making a scene about how sorry he was and that he needed to explain. I told him there was nothing I needed to hear and walked away with him yelling in the background that he loved me! (frightening!)
That was weeks ago, and I CANNOT get it out of my head. It's like a part of me really wants to hear what he has to say, yet a bigger part of me is devoted to the man I married and respectful and grateful for what we have.
Can anyone explain this morbid curiosity? I feel a little melancholy about it. (But at the same time and sooo very thankful that he doesn't know my married name and cannot contact me!) What's wrong here???
NO: I don't want to pursue a relationship with him! I love my husband. He's great to me and my family.
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