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Do you ever feel like you are living in another life
Posted: Aug 5, 2011
Okay, before anyone replies with "you're the only one who can change things" or anything like that, I know that already. I know not to be living in a dream world, be grateful for what I have, etc. I know all that stuff. I'm just wondering if there are other people who feel like they are living in a different life they are not meant to be in. I don't know how to describe it. I feel like I'm in limbo or something. I was pulling up some different properties around the country and this house just stood out at me. I can't explain it but I looked at it and have an overwhelming feeling I just belong there. Looking at the grounds, the road it's on, the town it's in, I know I belong there. I can't tell you how strongly. It's not just a "oh it would be nice to have that house", it was more of a "I BELONG THERE" feeling. I could feel the breeze and smell the air and see myself standing on the road that leads to the property. I just can't describe it. I don't belong here. I don't belong in his house I'm in, in this town or state. I have no friends or family here and have no children. Everyone I know is up north. But DH told me he doesn't want to live up north. I told him I don't want to live here, so we stand apart, but looking for a future together. All I know is I don't belong here. It doesn't feel right. I feel like I'm out of my body looking in at someone going through the motions of day to day life. Does anyone else feel this way?
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SImilar - FL MLS
[ In Reply To ..]The American Indians call this a “Vision” This is different than a wish or a dream or Déjà vu. A vision usually occurs when a person is felling disconnected and wants to achieve some sort of connect with their spirit again. Now is the time to be aware of every sign that comes your way and just let it occur. My vision was so real and it stayed in my head for years. I was watching a sunrise from the east. I was on an old covered bridge and it went as far as my hair blowing in the wind. Well when that place found me and I was actually there - I felt a feeling of arrival in my own being.
I once had a very strong deja vu happen when I - -(sm)- Tahoe-person
[ In Reply To ..]visited a small ranch way up in the mountains. I KNOW I had never been there before, and had never even known the road it was on existed. Yet I oddly felt like I'd been there before. I also knew where everything in the house was, and where every tool and tractor in the barn would be, like the back of my hand. Even the dogs (Borzoi) were familiar to me, and they & I greeted each other like we'd known each other for years. Later I mentioned it to the lady and her husband who owned the place. They weren't even surprised; they said they had had people whom they had only just met, who had come to their ranch for the first time, say exactly the same things I was saying. Very strange.
Ever since I was 10, I've always felt that way about - Lake Tahoe - like I need to be there.
[ In Reply To ..]I came close to moving there on 2 different occasions, but never did. Maybe if I had, I wouldn't be living the total NON-life I'm living now.
how old are you - just curious
[ In Reply To ..]Sounds like you're at a crossroads and need to choose a path, and one that may be difficult for you.
Just turned 51 a month ago - more info regarding this
[ In Reply To ..]This home that I posted about is in a town I grew up in, so it's very familiar territory to me, however, that is not the issue with me. Sure I get homesick (a lot - even after being away for 30 years, but this is different. I know I belong there. I can't tell you why. It's just not a feeling of deja vu or homesickness or past life or any of that. It's a feeling of knowing I'm in the wrong place. I've discussed this with DH in the past, but he doesn't always see things my way, I always have to look at things his way, but that's besides the point. First off the town I grew up in is nearly bankrupt and nobody has any jobs up there, so not possible to move up there financially wise. But it's just a very strong feeling I have that I'm just misplaced. My heart aches to be there, standing on the road, taking walks there, planting my garden there, and all the other stuff I'm supposed to be doing - there. It's not here. We're getting ready for another move (which will be our 28th move within 30 years of being together). I'm looking at places we will be thinking of moving to and while they are all just a house to put our stuff and do our day to day stuff, it does not feel right. It doesn't feel the same as what I feel thinking about the place up north. Sorry if this is rambling, I just feel trapped living a life I don't belong in. Just wondered if any others were going through the same things.
Thanks for all the replies.
51 and loving the view - a1
[ In Reply To ..]It sounds to me like you are more struggling with being with your husband and are wanting to go back to find a part of yourself that you feel you may have left behind? Lots of clarity comes with turning 50 sometimes.
OMG - you really said it - OP
[ In Reply To ..]I am in a struggle and even though I've never wanted to admit that, what you said really rings true. I feel like I was yanked away too soon (yes I know it was my decision - joined the military at a young age), I just feel like a part of me is left there. Its just an awful empty feeling. When I look at the pictures of the place I wrote about I feel like I could reach through the picture and I'd be there.
Thanks for your post. Now I have to figure out how to deal with this.
51 and loving the view - A1
[ In Reply To ..]I went back and looked at your original post and what stuck out to me was what you said about "always needing to see things from his point of view." Why is that? Why can't you have your own point of view and he can have his. You are two different people. Two may become one in marriage but you are still individuals. Are you guys still in the military? Is that why all of the moving? I can relate to that. I was in as well and my husband retired from the military. It can be hard to feel settled with so much moving around. Once you finally settle down in one place you may be able to put down some roots. It'll be okay. You'll figure it out. Concentrate on rekindling your friendship with your husband, it is easy to lose sight of that after 30 years. That's important. I'm glad my post helped. I've been there so I sorta felt your pain. Bless you.
Forgot about my post here until now - OP
[ In Reply To ..]It's hard to explain it (seeing things from his point of view) without writing a book. Here's an example. About 3 years ago I wanted to go up to see my brother and his wife and their kids. I finally had some free time, money saved and he wants to know why I would want to do that. I said oh maybe because it's been 4 years since I've seen them. We're finally at a point where I can take a break. Him - Well I thought you wanted to do this or that. Me - Look at it from my point of view. There is no reason why I can't go. Him - No you're wrong, why don't you look at things from my perspective. The after a few words he decides he's going to recite the passages in the Bible that fit his needs (wife obeying husband - or some crap like that). He never has looked at a situation we have faced from my viewpoint. It's always his and I'm always supposed to look at things the way he sees them (he even told me that once). I have my own opinions on a lot of issues that are different than his but I keep my opinions to myself. After 30 years I find it easier than to be fighting all the time. I'm always supposed to see things his way, and if I ever disagree we usually argue until he gets his way. One time I was determined not to give in. The fight lasted 3 days. Now I just ignore a lot and keep my opinions to myself. It makes life easier.
We're not in the military anymore. Got out 22 years ago. Every time we have moved it's been for a job or moving to a different location because of lack of work in the area we lived in.
My mom and dad offered to "give" us the house my sister, brothers and I grew up in. Everything was paid for, all we would have to pay is taxes. At that time jobs were plentiful and the house and acreage is everything he has always been looking for, but it's always...no, I don't want to live up there. I was born and raised here. So we turned down a nice little modest 3 bedroom ranch home. for what? living in apartments and struggling - well don't want to go into all that. It's just always been his way.
51 and enjoying the view - A1
[ In Reply To ..]OK, now I just got mad after reading your post. I can see why you are considering getting out of there. What an abusive jerk! Sounds to me like you've been putting up with psychological abuse (don't take my word for it, do the research so you can see for yourself. Then get mad and don't take it anymore! He doesn't sound like much of a friend to me. Like I said, there's something about turning 50 that starts bringing clarity and then we stop putting up with a lot of other people's crap like we used to. You are a saint! I wish you the best. I hope you don't think I'm stepping out of line with my comments, but I am just ticked for you and what you have been putting up with for so long! I'll be praying for you and your strength. And don't even get me started on how he is taking the Bible out of context and using it to keep you in line. Shame on him!
Yes, definitely. I had felt this way the majority of my life (sm) - anon
[ In Reply To ..]and could not understand why. Just felt that I never belonged in the town that I lived in, where I was living, that something else was pulling it to me but had no idea what it was. Without giving too many details, about 7 years ago I was some place when I saw a name. I was instantly drawn to that name from "within," but had no idea why. This person was busy at the time but I was so drawn that I ended up staying until they were available (can you say stalker?? LOL joking). When I saw this person and introduced myself to them I immediately felt that I had known this person my entire life on a level that I cannot even begin to understand. If that was not strange enough, without giving any indication of what I was going through to this person, they invited me out for coffee and the connection was immediate and amazing. After chatting for a while this person stated to me that they felt that they had known me for their entire life and felt that we were "meant" to connect that day. Unfortunately this person lives overseas, had to return and I had to return to my life, my family.
That was 7 years ago and to this day I think about this person on a daily basis and miss them so much that when I stop and think about it, my heart truly aches. I have never EVER experienced anything like this before in my life, not even with my spouse.
Oh, and where this person is from, is a place that I have always felt that I belonged and not here in the US. Even as a child I would tell people that I was from this place and was going back when I was grown. A few years ago my parents started digging into our family's background and we found out that my great-great grandparents are from the same area that this person is from.
Before this happened to me, I did not believe in "other" lives but after experiencing this and feeling so "right" with this person immediately, I have to wonder if it is not true.
I've had this feeling too. sm - CrispyCritterMT
[ In Reply To ..]I live in southern Ohio, but frequently visit Lexington, KY. I have a lot of friends and equine activities there. I immediately feel at home there and I never get lost. I had to take my Dad there for an open MRI and right next to it was a street that immediately made me feel at peace, like I had lived there before. It was a quiet, tree lined street with older houses. I also had a strange sort of at peace feeling when I drove past the old cemetary there too, like I was buried there. LOL Don't laugh! That was weird.
Have you posters considered - past-life regression therapy?
[ In Reply To ..]x
Another life - Anon
[ In Reply To ..]One word... TAHITI!
I have dreams about a place that I have never been and... - ndmt
[ In Reply To ..]a person. I can see the place but not the person, and I have the most amazing feeling of being completely loved, cherished & secure. I wake up from those dreams wanting to go back to sleep.
It leaves me wondering, too, if there is somewhere else I am supposed to be or someone else I am supposed to be with. At 43, I hope if I have the opportunity to live that life it will make itself clear shortly.
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