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If I had a therapist, I could go talk to my therapist...but I don't...
I got offered to come back a few hours a week at my old tutoring job - $15/hour. A 3-dollar an hour raise. At daycare I make...$9.50/hour. A no-brainer, right? But tutoring job is maybe 3-10 hours a week, tops. Not enough hours. But with the daycare job, it's too many hours - especially since I've gotten shingles and want to address some health issues (basically STRESS REDUCTION).
So I need to get my nerve up and ask, can I drop down to 4 days a week? Frankly 3 would be ideal. I wonder exactly how sick and out of shape and run down a person has to be, before someone notices? No, no one notices.
I started taking my vitamins again, and doing some yoga-type meditation and progressive relaxation. My mom who is struggling with back pain, I told her about meditation, then she asked me about it again, so now she is doing meditation too for her back pain.
I feel guilty, look at all these other stressed-out overweight women at daycare, worn out, tired, dragging around, go to work and come home and that's it....I mean, I see them. I AM one of them. But I don't want to be.
I'm going back into work at the daycare on Monday - I really don't want to - I wear the "badge of shame" - I took a WHOLE WEEK OFF for shingles, instead of toughing it out, covering up my rash (across top of my breast and around to back - oww!!!!), taking Vicodin, and dealing with a bunch of toddlers and my do-the-bare-minimum-and-talk-my-ears-off coworker.
Well, there's my rant. I think on Thursday, I will send an email to the director, saying I only want 4 days, not 5. Just finesse it.
I feel like, so often, people ARE NOT WELL, and it doesn't matter, because everyone else around them is not well either. It's like it's NORMAL to be UNHEALTHY. It really is. And when you try to do something about it, you get branded "selfish," "lazy," "slacker." I'm in my 50s now. I need to take care of myself NOW. A pox on the world!!!
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