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Hi all! Hoping I can get some other womanly feedback/advice! My current (former) boyfriend and I are in the process of breaking up. We've been together for 8 years, never married (a HUGE issue for me), live together still (not romantically) and have a 2 year old together. We fight, nothing physical but have our ugly moments.
When BF got job transfer out of state, I gave up my (extremely) good paying job to move with him to a very rural area. We just found out about baby coming so decided that since the new area did not have many job prospects, I would be a SAHM (stay at home mom). So other than going to school for MT, that's what I've been doing. We talked about getting married, bought a ring that I wore for a few years, but no matter how many times I talked about it, he never followed through. I gave up asking, years go by and no marraige. He fails to follow through on anything though.
Move forward a couple years, so many unresolved issues led to me being finished with the relationship and want to move on. I have come to realize that: 1. He will never committ to marraige; 2. he will never change; 3. we have nothing in common other than casual conversations about our child; 4. we have zero chemistry; 5. i am not in love with him, frankly, I am embarrassed to say I never truly was in love with him but in love of the idea of him and what he promised...okay, so I have my own issues LOL. I can list all the things that have happened over the years that I just can not forgive/forget just yet and I am having a hard time with that as I want to be a happy person again.
Anyways...I want out. He doesn't. I have told him in so many ways that I'm not in love with him, he refuses to see that but insists that if he changes or does this/that, I will fall in love with him and we'll be a happy little family again. I do not see my future with him and have told him that.
Today I filed child custody paperwork. He hit the ceiling. I have been telling him for months now I want to move back out West to be closer to my family and where I am sure to sure a decent job to support myself and child. He says if I leave the state, he will charge me with kidnapping and will seek full custody. He is sure he will get it too since I don't work/show income to support us. Although, my work history has been stable with very good income since I was able to work at 15. He has the funds to hand over to a lawyer and I don't.
So what should I do?!? My family is ready to fly down here, rent a truck and move us out ASAP. I do not want to do anything to jeopardize future chances of custody nor want to engage in a nasty battle with him. If I could find decent paying job here, I would love to stay so he can have a decent relationship with our child. He told me often times that if I did leave, he would not see his son all but once a year. I told him that is ridiculous and if that is the case, that is unfortunate for him but it will be his own doing/choice.
Ugh...sorry so long!! I just need to get this out and get some feedback from woman who have some insight/thoughts/opinions or who have been there. My family is great, but we all know how judgemental and harsh family and close friends can be when they feel someone they love is being hurt, know what I mean? I don't want them to hate him as I have to have contact with him for the next 16 years.
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