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He's old. He grew up in a time (Great Depression) when you didn't have therapy (not like today), PTSD, flashbacks, the whole understanding of abuse, alcoholism, Asperger. etc.
He was abused as a child. He said he liked to hang out at his grandparents next door (who didn't really speak English that much), because with his parents, he'd get yelled at, "Goddamit!" and the back of their hand to his head. So he'd go have coffee and donuts at his grandparents, who thought he was the greatest most wonderful child ever.
I got into it with my dad this morning. He starts unloading, blaming, *chuckling* at what I say - and I got mad and said "stop it" "this is abuse" "just stop it!" and he just digs in more, and boom! flashback! And I bring up how he assaulted me in high school, "you hit me in the head, knocked off my feet, and when I was crawling on my hands and knees to the front door, you kicked me in the ass, and then you kicked me in the ass off the porch, and I was grabbing onto the bushes" and he *laughs* and says "no, I never did that, I never hit you," and I say X was right there, should I call him up and ask him? And I told him he never apologized to me, you assaulted me and you never apologized.
Oh good morning! And where I was headed out the front door today? Oh, to go volunteer at an elementary school library! And then after I volunteered, the librarian said my name and "I love you!" you know because I volunteered and that's how elementary school librarians (media specialists) talk to people.
And as a *former MT* I STILL don't have a solid job, I'm STILL job hunting - I have one job, but I need one or two more! So I'm volunteering! And dad, I just can't TAKE your abuse, just stop it alright!!!!!!!
I can't afford a therapist now. Today my dad said, "oh, so it's all my fault" and it's like I'd like to yell at him "YES IT IS ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!!!!!!" There has been a big giant Atlantic Ocean of problems in relationships with men in my life, not that anyone in my family knows anything about it - what do teenage girls take away from being ASSAULTED by their mom and dad BOTH - and nobody gets arrested, nothing happens, I just get more crap piled on me - the take away is: "Nobody cares what happens to me."
I feel bad, you are supposed to be respectful to old people, and your parents. But it's like I have to be my own "Tiger Mom," ferocious, to defend myself.
I love all these stories about bullying from kids - yeah, well what if it's your own parents? Parents can be bullies too. I read about these kids who commit suicide because of all the bullying - I'd like to tell my dad, "hey you bit the bullet on that one, you're even a bigger abuser than those bullies were, and all your kids are still alive! Aren't you the lucky one!"
Well, I had to vent. When you assault someone, correction, when you're an adult and you assault a minor, there is NO EXPIRATION DATE ON THE APOLOGY. He may never admit what he did, much less apologize, but it doesn't mean that he shouldn't. He should. Even though he probably WON'T.
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