Please pray for me. Starting a new job and not sure

After 25 years in MT industry, I have spent 2 years without a job, despite never a QA issue, absentee issue, any issue. I sent out hundreds of resumes and the few jobs which were offered were scams. Now, I am joining a house cleaning operation and 2 of us must clean 5 houses a day. For the first time, at 60, I am going to face grueling task of physical labor. I fear I will not be able to do this due to sheer fatigue. I usually walk with a cane due to breast cancer and imbalance due to lack of reconstruction, but will not have that ability anymore. I will make 10.00 without benefits, paid 35 cents a mile. If I cannot do this, I will be living in the car with my dogs.

I am afraid of this depression I am feeling. It is intolerable, hopeless, makes me edgy and want to retreat. I cry at the drop of a hat and that is probably what cost me the job at a medical supply store; I began to cry silently. I feel so abandoned by the medical field. Seeing a doctor isn’t an option. I have no family. I just sold the house (house poor) and moved to Florida and wonder if I can even afford to live here. Too late to change my mind because I spent all the equity getting here. I actually drove a 16 foot Penske truck across the country to Pennsylvania and then to Florida, looking for a new place to call home. I am one of those ladies who live alone and you rarely see but for when she walks her dogs or goes to the store. I have been in the house since 2005.

Please pray for me and my dogs, that we find create a life for ourselves. I feel God close to me, he helped me get here; I had to rest at motels for 2-3 days - traffic on major freeways is 70-80 MPH, with all 3 dogs - I understood what a nervous breakdown was during that time. Please God, give me the strength to live.

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Please pray for me. Starting a new job and not sure - I can do this

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