Scared, so, so, scared

I've been awake for 5 hours.  It's now 2:15 and I haven't logged on to work yet.  There's plenty of work available.  I'm just afraid to do it.  They've set so many rules in place that it's gotten too hard to wrap my head around all of them, and many of them are now resulting in fines or just flat out not being paid for the report. 

My brain's on overload.  I feel like any grasp of the English language and grammar and punctuation has flown out the window.  I'm afraid to type a simple sentence for fear that I won't put the comma or semicolon in the right place, or put one where it doesn't belong and get hit with a fine.  I'll get an op note that I've never done before and get panicky because I don't know if a grouping of words that is dictated as one huge run-on sentence needs to stay together or broken up or if the doctor's even dictated them correctly. 

I'm sitting at my desk basically frozen in place.  I'm afraid to work and get hit with fines.  I'm afraid to not work and not maky ANY money. 

I don't know what to do.  I don't know where to turn.  I've contacted my local Veterans Administration rep, twice, asking what help is available for women veterans as far as student loans or grants or anything to start over with something else.  He hasn't replied and it's been weeks. 

We're struggling to keep two households together that are 3-1/2 hours apart.  My DH had to take a job far away because it was the only thing available and his unemployment benefits had run out.  It's a great job, but I need to stay in one place and he's in the other.  We can't afford to pay rent for the second place plus utilities and internet on two separate households anymore.  Some friends of my daughter need a place to stay, but what we'd need to ask for rent on this place is too much for them, even though it's only $300 per person with everything included.  I was hoping that could be a break for all of us, but I guess I was wrong.

I kept holdiing out hope but I don't think I can anymore.