Grandmother with adopted grandchild

I posted on the prayer request board when I first got the news.  It was confirmed on Friday that I have clinical stage 3 breast cancer.  The surgeon's office is going to call me when they set up an appointment with an oncologist this week to start workup before planning chemo.  This is going so fast!

I talked to my girl to tell her what to expect.  The 5-year survival rate is 72%.  I'm praying I will see her graduation.  She is in seventh grade this year.  My son set up a GoFundMe account, but he just set one up in October for his mother-in-law as she had a brain tumor.  It was excised and she is undergoing a half dozen sessions of gammaknife to keep it from growin back (it was benign so no chemo or radiation, thankfully).  My son and his wife haven't even been married 2 years yet and both inlaws are going through this.  I know it is a lot on them and I hope to not be too much of a burden to them.  They live 2000 miles from me, anyway.

I don't know what to expect as far as keeping a job.  I did resign from a small account, though, as I know I'm going to have to let go of some work, might as well start with the most insignificant.  I have a friend in the community who I think could help with finding a possible guardian in case one is needed. 

I do feel alone, but hey, that has been both a necessity and a choice because of the dynamics of the adoption.  My oldest sister refused to acknowledge my mother's last will where I was named beneficiary of my mom's home and land and kept everything herself, no relationship there anymore.  My brother died of lung cancer when he was 44.  My other sister, well, she is bipolar and I don't know how much she can offer.  She tells me she wants to be there every step of the way, but she hasn't been here in the last 20 years, so we will see.

I'm rambling now. I just wanted to vent.  I have a couple of weeks before chemo starts, so I'm just going to take it one day at a day and see what happens.  I know He has a plan.