Giving up - still here Posted: Nov 27th, 2017 - 8:12 pm
There is no hope. I accepted Jesus years ago and I really did try to be what God wanted. However, when my life fell apart and my church at the time did too, I have had nothing but hurt and pain. I don't happen to feel that most of you know the kind of pain I have known. You are elite Christians who love to tell us we have not done something right or we would have good things in our life.
I am sick to death of this type of Christians. I tried to live right and do right and to tell the truth. A lot that helped.
He let the evil one take everything I had that was pleasurable down to a little dog that belonged to a friend of mine (no more now though) and he was so excited when I came to see her and him. Well the lady next door got him gone and so she is happy and I doubt my friend is happy since he was her support dog. He was helping me with my yearly depression.
One more time I tried to fight for what was right and ended up being punished for it. I told the truth and I end up being more depressed.
You have no idea what it is like to be a senior. If you don't have a support system, you will see the people you feel could be a good friend taken away by someone else who already has plenty of friends. They get the loyalty you should have but most of all the love.
I have only second cousins and a son who never comes around. God never fixed our relationship that was ruined by his father and the law never did anything about that either. I have first cousins who live too far away. I took care of my mother till she died. Where is the person who takes care of me. I did what I was told to do by the Bible and even forgave my ex as he continued to be mean to me legally and no one came to my rescue.
I know there is no justice except for those who feel they deserve it. I have never had any in my life.
I have to wonder why I am still living if I cannot have the one thing I need most, love. Don't tell me all I need is God. You try doing without the hugs of your husband or children or grandchildren and then tell me that God is all you need.
I have lost all I held dear by death and have always tried to keep going on those still left. It doesn't work. You run out of people eventually and just wait till it is your time to die.
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